I have no idea

I wish I knew what I wanted to say but, I don't. If I had a way of changing he outcome of this ay I a sure I would be a busy man y now buying mself some presents and treating myself well, who am I fooling? Its that time of te month where you look at your pocket and say its a long way to go.  I am a practical being wth all my practical discisions that smetimes ecome a practical joke.

I am sitting in  food court in Jungfernstieg enjoying my banana, mango smoothie. It feels like my world is bigger then my feet. I am not sure how w ill this day end. I am inspired by people I see and hear, while they eat, meet and chat. I sould be at ok but I dnt feel lke it at te moment. I could call my wife but I decide not to. Something wrong with this pcture, can someone tell me wat is it?

I see

All that we see seem to change every time we get closer to it. Are we getting any closer or we are looking at the different angle as it turn while we are walking the way of life towards what is believed to be it? I read less then I should have in my days entrusted to me. i see more then some of us. Most of my time i see clearly when my eyes are closed.  All that I hear has color and shape. It is not a metaphor, but it is real to me.

Its been a very long time since i have spoken about this. Normally I do not open this page of my life because of the response i always get from professional so called people and this does not sit well in my heart. Well the fact of the matter is "I SEE". As much as I do not want to but i have learn to fall in love and accept that it is what it is. Thank God I am not famous, that would complicate my entire daily living to the extend of my beloved friends and family. Can anyone find common ground between the vibrations of sound and sight? is it possible that all we see is the shadow of what is real but we do not want to believe so coz the world will then classify us as mad, crazy or hallucinating?

I have read some books and attended some workshops and seminars that are believed to be connected with what I am saying, but to my surprise all can not get to the same direction i am looking at things. First of all most of people use hypnotism to get to the center of your source. I find it insane to manipulate someones mind then say you have found the right thing. I want someone who can see what I see and not someone who have studied people like me and then copy the way they talk. I do not want the religious opinion coz it sucks. I do not want help I am OK about who i am, I need company and to see the more bigger picture of what is to come.

To see does not mean you tell the future, does not mean you talk to the dead, does not mean you know more then others. This is who i am not what I am. Let me continue be what I am to you and I would be who I am everyday.